Random Thought: Que Sera Sera?

Just to think about my future, it is kinda scary. We will never know what future has to offer. It could best or worst. It could be beautiful or ugly. We can't really tell. Que sera, sera? Yes! But still, I just need to work my ass off. I know it's going to be one hell of a ride, I have no choice but to live up my life. There is this, old saying " Life without struggle, is a life without success" Without struggle we would not, indeed could not change and grow. So, everyone, let's work harder to achieve our kind of future that we want. Jyeah!

Que Sera Sera

Whatever will be will be

The future's not ours to see

Que Sera Sera

What will be will be

Hashtag 20 Amazing Facts About Me

I have actually done this on my Instagram Profile. I want to keep my blog updated, therefore I've got to re-do it here. So, brace yourself. These are the 20 amazing facts about me. Extended version. 
Here we go.

Fact No 1: Name
The correct way to pronounce my name is /j/ /oa/ /n/ = John but my secondary school friends used to call me Joanne. Since then, people know me by the name Joanne.

Fact No 2: Ethnic
My parents are pure both Dusun. I'm a proud Dusun girl, the indigenous people of Sabah, Borneo. I speak my mother tongue at home and I can speak 3 different languages, fluently; Dusun, English and Malay (awesome! lol). I can understand and converse in Mandarin like the basic conversation with basic vocabulary.

Fact No 3: Irrational Fear
Katsaridaphobia. Google it. I refuse to elaborate on this particular topic. next!

Fact No 4: Allergy
I have no issue with food but I do have the kind of allergy with people who can't throw rubbish properly. You people are disgusting. Seriously. I don't understand why is it so hard to throw rubbish in the bin.
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Fact No 5: Quality of Acquaintances I Look For.
I don't fancy rude people. My definition of rude people might be different than yours. 

Fact No 6: "Mask"
I am not a cosmetic addict but one thing you should know about me when it comes to make-up talk, stepping out of my home without putting on my mask is a NO-NO. I would probably, at least put on my red lipstick.

Fact No 7: Average Asian Sabahan Girl
I'm vertically challenged (alternative adjective for 'short')  but not intellectually. You'll always find me in high heel wedges or pumps or whatever footwear that would make me slightly taller. 

Fact No 8: Meowww
Ailurophile. Cats lover. Cat-person. I love cats! I have 3 beautiful cats at home. To build shelter for stray cats is one of my life goals. I sleep with my cats. Yup.

Fact No 9: Good Girl Gone Bad
During my undergraduate studies, I had a fight with one of the UMS librarians. It was about my 'inappropriate' attire for the campus library. I won the fight btw lol. My friends and I used to be called 'geng skirt pendek' or 'mini-skirt gang' by one of the jealous librarians. haha. It's so hard to be pretty you know. The struggle is real! (okay you can puke here)

Fact No 10: Make Me Laugh = You're Attractive
I always find people who can make me laugh attractive, regardless of gender. 

Fact No 11: Bad English is NO NO
I admit it. I can be an annoying Grammar Nazi sometimes. If you wish to talk to me in English, make sure your English is way better than mine. 

Fact No 12: 9Gagger Tehee!
I spend most of my internet-time on 9Gag and Youtube. I love Ryan Higa videos, He's incredibly annoying but cute and funny.

Fact No 13: My Humble Talent
I play guitar since I was in Primary 3. Self-taught. I used to play for my church. Then, I stopped playing when I went for matriculation programme. Since that day, my skills never seem to improve lol

Fact No 14: Caffeine! 
Coffee person. But I do take tea sometimes.  

Fact No 15: So called Motivation
Life is like a wheel, it has ups and downs. I truly believe in 'life without struggle is a life without success. Life's ain't a bed of roses ladies and gentlemen.

Fact No 16: I can't sleep without music. 
True.

Fact No 17: Short-legged Girl With Mountain High Ambition jyeah! 
With my short legs, I climbed Mount Kinabalu twice. I'm planning to climb the majestic mountain again, next year. But this time, I wanna go for Via Feratta experience. I'm thrilled, just to think about it *That's the spirit baby!*

Fact No 18: Fangirling At Its Best!
When I was a little girl, I used to fantasize about Westlife's private plane to crash near my kampung, then I would go and save them and invite the five of them to stay in my home for few days. I was a big big fan back then. Mark was my favourite, till I knew he's actually gay. What a waste!

Fact No 19: Relationship Status
I'm in a relationship with food.

Fact No 20: Role Model
My all-time role model is, of course one of the strongest women I've ever known in my life, my mother. She is an aneurysm survivor. 


So, these are the twenty amazing facts about me. I hope you enjoy reading this long and crappy entry. Until next time. 

How To Deal With Difficult People

We have all met people who are so prickly and difficult to deal with. This entry goes to my ex-boyfriend.

So, it's been 2 months since I broke up with my ex. I have moved on and he's still have this high hope for us getting back together. My brother told me, the stage of acceptance is quite slow for men to accomplish. As a lady, I can't really tell to what extent his theory can be applied in one's life.  

As far as I can recall, I made it clear to him that we're done. I don't know which part that he doesn't understand with that phrase and think that he still can go to mi casa and act like we are still together? I'm beyond words to describe how I feel about this. He keeps on bothering me, indirectly and it is so annoying. I'm trying to be nice to not to fight back with violence because I know aggressiveness won't solve my problem anyway. But, even the nicest people have limit and they will get tired eventually. Maybe I should use different approach to make him stop from bugging me. ugh!

He really gets under my skin, bothering my life, but this time, not with annoying cheesy text messages and thousand missed calls. He has stepped up his game by using my family, friends and my hometown community. He even bought new car to impress me, but lemme tell you something EX-boyfriend, it's just a little too late for you to create different personality, to become someone that I used to wish for you to become.

The best thing that I can do now is to be ignorant. There's a saying, IGNORANCE IS BLISS. Indeed. Gotta live with this saying. You were someone to me, but now let's make it clear you are just a history. Every person we come across in our lives will teach us life lessons, with or without us knowing it. I have no regrets knowing you in my life because I know, we met for many reasons. The good ones, shall I keep them. I hope you will meet someone new who will love and cherish you, better than I did. I wish nothing but the best, for you.

Okay.

"aggressiveness won't solve any, patience I ain't got plenty, exertion should take place when one's ready"